|♥ my shit ♥|
Age: wouldn't you like to know?
build: cuddly. (a nice word for fat lol)
Nicknames: Mama Mangle, Foxy, Emmie-Loo, Ellie, Rose, and those who have a death wish call me Emz/Ems. don't ever call me that.
loves: My boyfriend Josh , Murphy Pendleton, Daryl Dixon, Joel Miller, Silent hill, the last of us, the evil within, five nights at Freddy's, Steven Universe, doctor who, making new friends (I can't keep them though..), rendering mine and others OC's, romance, sweeties, pressing flowers,foxes/dogs and wolves, all animals really, collecting things like feathers, rocks and pine cones, painting, drawing, making music, listening to music, when I'm treated like a person and not a mentally ill person, meeting others like me, roleplaying, the 80's, the 90's, cartoons, plushies, blankies, crafts, pink things, gaming, gaming merchandise, pin badges, writing poems and stories, helping people, sparkly stuff, fluffy things, milkshakes, spiritual stuff, sleeping, winter and autumn, cuddles, Chihuahuas, patterdale terriers, hoodies, classic my little pony, Thomas the tank engine.
hates: bullies, stalkers and abusers, art thieves and identity thieves, being misjudged, fake/toxic friends, being pestered to talk, being controlled, being told what to do, being spoken to like an idiot, being judged incorrectly, people who spit in the street, inflation and foot fetishes or other creepy fetishes, people who play with others emotions, therapists and psychiatrists, summer, hot weather, insects and bugs, back stabbers, rumours, greed, stupid questions, those who only give to get something back, always being abandoned, broken promises, being laughed at for loving murphy, art block, render block, writers block, being hot and tired, sweating, people in general, shallow gestures "I'm here if you need me, but I hope you never do", heavy handed people, the sound of eating/loud breathing/loud drinking, mouth breathers, shipping, fnaf shipping, the entire populace of youtubes comment section, violence, drugs and drug users, animal abuse, child abuse, the 12th doctor, ignorance, unnecessary racism, homophobia, spiders and similar things, selfishness, people who are constantly on their fucking phone
dream: to live in Australia in a little white house in the woods, a veranda all the way around, nothing but the sound of cockatoos, warbling magpies and kookaburras. I want to get married to Josh, be happy together with our dog bibs and single cat bib. I want us to grow old together in the place of red soil and ghostly white gum trees ♥
personality: I'm very nice most of the time. I try my hardest to be there for people, help them and love them. I can't stand texting and phonecalls which seems to piss off everybody I come into contact with. I simply believe that I don't need to have my face in my phone 24/7 to prove my friendship to you. I let people be how they are and I expect the same in return. A quote I came up with goes: Give what you're able, Accept what you get, in reference to relationships of all kinds. don't push people to give you more than they can. I am a loner by nature, always have been. I'm Autistic and have various other mental health problems that prevent me from having normal friendships and relationships (people always leave me..). I'm extremely kind, gentle and loving, but sometimes I find it hard to be kind to everyone. sometimes I snap, and I can be very nasty when I do. I have multiple personalities that are all living their own lives in my head. they're all very nice except for one. but she doesn't matter. I love to snuggle down and watch cartoons or my fave shows, and I have a very sweet tooth. well, whats left of them lol I have a very short fuse and when asked a stupid question I can't hold back the sarcasm. I'm intensely logical, so if something doesn't make sense to me, I get frustrated and sometimes angry and tend to cry a lot. I have a lot of common sense too..but I haven't met anybody else who does. I spend most of my time doing something creative or playing video games, making renders and drawings, writing dumb stories and poems or just browsing DA ^^. I volunteered at the day center I went to before it closed, doing meditation groups and helping with art groups. I miss helping people relax. I'm a child stuck in an adults body..that's my autism. this makes people think I'm a spoilt drama queen brat, but I am definitely not. I'm in a lot of pain physically all the time so sometimes I appear grumpy and fed up, and I'm always tired so I need lots of naps to stay "healthy". overall, I'm kind, creative and childish...but I have a nasty temper and a sharp tongue when angered.. please don't get me so angry that I become nasty as hell, because the guilt I suffer afterwards is unbearable.